Long Time No Entry...

Well so many things have changed in a year.... Yeah I know its been a year since my last blog posting. For that I apologize. But the most important thing is my growth in God. No this is not about to be a religious posting but a REALigious posting. Its true you get knocked down and the Lord will pick you up. I am definitely proof of this. I sit back and think about the victim I was the past 365 days. How I prayed to him and didn't hold faith. The tears I shed and the heartbreak I felt. I have given trust to those who weren't to be trusted. I believed that my life's experiences have led me to be smart about my decisions and whom I shall let around me. But I was wrong, a sad mistake because in life everyone has a motive. Whether it is good or bad.

I have been violated and are dealing with my demons that I have been running from for so long. I also have been helping others deal with theirs.  I wise woman once said "getting advice from someone who has never went through or experienced the things in life you have, is like a dog asking a bird how to clean themselves... Its painful and so wrong". So as much as I love some of my friends and family when I hear their opinions or advice I truly am not listening.  A woman without kids can't educate me on how to raise mine. A single woman can't educate me on how to keep my man. A umemployed moocher can not educate me on how to keep my job. No this doesn't mean that I don't respect our relationships or their opinions and none of those titles used were to anyone in particular but from my experiences I have learned that people don't take responsibility for their part in why something isn't working in their life. They blame everyone else. which means they aren't honest with themselves so why take advice from them? Most of the time the advice is coming from a vindictive cortex. Not intentionally, but subconsciously.  In life you have to worry about yourself. Make the choices that make you happy, a better person, and a better child of God. Because others will put their opinion in the stamp of what they feel you should do with your life, and your life has nothing to do with theirs. The Lord holds your destiny... Your friends and family are just a long for the ride.

 I am working on being a better me. Loving hard and fighting less, because my battles aren't mine.